I guess we'll start with pictures. This is the second pregnancy picture I've taken. Pretty much because I haven't felt like I was showing at all. I concede (and am excited) that I finally am but it's been an interesting experince. I guess in my head I'd figured I'd either be showing or not showing but there's this weird in-between, stuffed with food, CF stage that I really wasn't expecting so it's been hard to know how much was baby and how much was lack of stomach muscles. I'll show you what I mean.
This is real me. Yes I do have a little belly. This is fake me.
You see fake me is what I look like at the end of the day when I can't hold in my stomach muscles anymore and I'm full of food. I mostly look like fake me all the time (because I really don't have any strength or muscles anymore) so everyone thinks I have a belly but... it's debatable. This is why...
Me at 7 weeks. Fake at 7 weeks. See I've always been able to push it out.
And just to prove it. These were taken months before I was ever pregnant.
I think it has something to do with my CF but I've always been able to push out a lot and trained my muscles to hold it in, without me even having to think about it. Now I'm too tired to hold it in.
So yes I have a belly but I tend to "show" a lot more then I am. :] It's funny looking at the 7 week pictures and 11 week because it looks like I've gained a lot of weight in that time frame and I haven't (and I'm not just saying that to make myself feel better.) Really I haven't gained one pound because if I had I would have shouted it from the rooftops. Instead my doctors are shouting at me! Even the other day my dad said "you are looking a little round... in the face." Ha thanks dad but the only place I want to be looking round is my belly!! My thighs have gotten bigger also! I've always been thin but never really toned and man is it showing. Haha I'm so jiggly and I have all these dimples in my thighs now. I can't say I'm thrilled about it but oh well. I'd be more thrilled if I was actually putting on pounds! It's weird how the weight is shifting but I don't know where it's shifting from. I can still squeeze into my regular clothes but barely (they're really uncomfortable. I basically wear P.J's all day!) and I don't want to buy maternity clothes for a little while. 1, we really could use a few weeks financially and 2, I only want to have to shop once (if that's even possible.) So I'm waiting as long as I possibly can (although I may have to sneak out and buy a pair of pants.)
Other then that I haven't felt to much of a change and no weird pregnancy things happening. I don't have any crazy cravings but things that I loved eating before I LOVE eating now!! There's also little things happening but I'm not sure I can blame it on being pregnant.
I forget things super easily but I've always been that way. Jarom and I were driving 2 days ago and I was holding sauce for his chicken that he was eating. I remember him taking it from me and telling me he wanted to hold it, the next thing I knew it was back in my hand and I had no recollection of how it got there. He said I reached over and took it back from him but I don't know. :] I'd like to blame the "pregnancy brain" but really, this is something that probably would have happened before.
Just in the past few weeks (I guess since I've reached my second trimester) I don't handle being overwhelmed very well. I can only handle a few things at a time before I just want to sit down and burst into tears (moving was interesting.)
Like I said pretty much anything I craved or anything that was hard or weird about me before I was pregnant is pretty much the same... just times 10. :]
Oh P.S. I finally realized why women have their hand on their back like that. Because there's no where else to put it when you're taking a side shot. :]